St Tropez 31-05-09

I am sitting outside of my caravan working out my tracks for a gig tonight down at Monroe´s in Port Grimaud and I am inspired to write to the world once again. Since I have arrived in this part of the world lots has changed for me. First of all I am working as a musician and then any other work comes second and this reality is really scary. I am living in France, learning to speak French and experiencing the European life style which I love. I miss my kids and I am growing rapidly. All I know right now is that if I take one day at a time, then I cannot go wrong, just putting one foot in front of the other and concentrating on the job at hand should see me through another summer in the sun.

I have been given somewhere free of charge to live until the middle of June by a new friend called Thierry. Thierry saw me play at Bar de Soleil and offered to help find me some work on the boats for billionaires and then we started talking. I have to date completed two gigs both of which brought new friends, food in my belly and money in my pocket. I am alive and I am kicking and that makes me feel incredibly powerful and grateful.

My love grows everyday for my family and this time away is one of prosperity and richness that I am not aware of yet. I cannot explain some of the feelings I have right now, I just feel like an artist, I feel as if I was meant to be in St Tropez for the summer of 2009. I feel as if everything happens for a reason, and that reason is called Life. Of course there are times of great loneliness and isolation and yet I now have the tools to deal with these feelings and I recognise that these feelings will too pass.

I am working on the tracks from Millionaire´s Playground getting the tracks in working order for an acoustic set tonight down in the port. I also have to work out how to locate more work, whilst keeping a balance with delivering a quality performance for the venues that have already booked and creating more wealth. I know that word of mouth is the way that I will really prosper in these conditions. I also need to work out how to get as many email addresses as possible so I can give away Starstruck online and who it is I need to talk to about creating a brighter future, recording the brand new album and loving when before there was only hate.

And then I remember that I am powerless over my addictions and my life has become unmanageable and the way to deal with life is hand my will and my future over to the hands of a power great than me, as that power can restore me to sanity.