I have an album called Millioanire´s Playground that I want to promote and eventually sell throughout the world. And this is my challenge!
Chamonix has its advantages as it is small and very community based, over the summer I would have a great chance of building relaitonships with key people in the area making enough money to survive and buidling a fan base which will help me as I want to stay in Chamonix for another winter season and play music all season long making money and influencing people. There are two very big markets here, the English and The Swedish... funny that I have not mentioned the French.
Another plus point and negative point is the level of musicianship here in the area is not world class. If I want to be the best I can then I need to surround myself with wolrd class musicians. It is a simple as that. There is only so much I can do on my own.I work
Whilst I have been in St Gervais, I have travelled to a town called Megeve to play in a private jazz club called Le Cinq Rue, and I have been playing with some world class musicians. I have played to them my new album and they agree that there are 3-4 hits on the album and therefore have agreed to play with me. They are going from the French Alps to St Tropez to play for the summer and I want to go with them. And then in winter come back with them to play in Megeve.
The down side of this is I do not want to have to rely on other people. I am building so I am completely self sufficient and musicians are notably unreliable. I want to find a way to move forward effotlessly rather than struggling. St Tropex is very expensive, I do not have any contacts down there, no accomodation and there will be huge comptetition. I am seeing Frank Taieb latter this week to discuss the St Tropez option more and I will need to be brutally honest with him.
Times like these it is important to walk before I can run so maybe I should concentrate on Chamonix which is a more forgiving market and then go to St Tropez next summer. St Tropez does offer lots of contacts and the need to improve rapidly. Its a hard one to really make a decision about.
Also the last point is that I am a father and I have seen my children for 1 week in the last 6 months, how do I reconcile my own feelings of abandonment when I am not there for my children? Having said that the relationship with Paz is better than its ever been and therefore the children are benefiting from our co-operation and growing friendship.
I would love to read your thoughts.
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Hi David. We were at school (Oaklands) together but we were not particular friends. You may not even remember me. I have been following your work through your web activity, as are many of us from back in the day. I was really touched by this post as it resonates with some of my own issues. I am a mother. I have been and am still on a similar journey to you, through recovery and self growth. I have been on this path for 10 years now and the scenery keeps getting better and life more extraordinary! You have done so well already! and there is more to come!
Here are some thoughts:
What are your responsibilities?
What are your priorities?
What are your dreams?
Trust your "gut" feeling.
Don't live in your stories.
Everything passes.
What a difference a year makes.
Go for it.
Keep working the program!
I have abandonment issues and both parents were together and physically present in my childhood! Parenting is not just a practical matter it is also a state of mind. Stay present to the tremendous responsibility and privilege that facilitating the lives of small humans is, but that doesn't mean being with them all the time! Keep in communication with them and tell them how much you love them and when you speak to them tell them you think of them in every hour, every day that passes.
We all make mistakes.
It is really hard to find a balance.
We can only do our best in life. Sometimes that will not be good enough but that's ok too!
Be kind and gentle with yourself David.
It sounds like you are doing your best. It sounds like your heart and mind are open, so you are doing something amazing already!
There is a school of psychological thought that says if we are breathing there is more right with us than wrong.
EVERYTHING that has happened, good and bad has made you the amazing human you are today.
Remember, the flame that burns inside you that has hurt you and nearly burned you to death in the past is the same flame that shines so brightly and clearly now with passion, creativity and integrity.
Wishing you love and light always.
Best BC.x
Dear BC,
I remember sitting inside a jail cell crying and believing that the whole world was against me... 4 years on I am sitting in the alps thinking where has the time gone?
The greatest thing I have leanrt in the last two years is as follows:
"this too shall pass"
the good and the bad everything changes, change is the only inevitable outcome in life.
Thankfully I change just like everyone and everything else, and now I am going through some big change again... its great, going to see my children in Spain and sit by the pool for a couple of weeks, back to London and then back to work in France, either Chamonix or St Tropez, what a ride...
Hope your journey is just as cool and fun... feels like a life time since we were at school, and I guess I am still there learning along the way.
David.
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