One step backwards two steps forwards

I have just arrived in La Fayet in France where I am going to be spending the next 5-6 months of my life. The idea is that I work for a ski company called Snowcoach as a driver/maintenance man, therefore covering my head with a roof, putting food in my belly, skies on my feet and enough money to look after the children in Spain. On top of that I play live in the Alps which is all cash in my back pocket, and will help me clear some of the unwanted credit card bills and help develop a data base of punters over the winter season.

I can´t wait to get cracking to be honest. I am really looking forward to hooking with some more musicians, my experiment with Nina K worked well and the two voices combined is an avenue I would like to walk down again. My struggle is that I am tired at the moment and I just want to get into a nice warm bath, eat some food and then to bed after reading my book. So the plans for new musicians and gigging will have to wait for a new day.

The mountains surround me and I am breathing clean air once again, I have spoken to Paz and she seems really happy, and I will speak to Jacob and Eloise latter on this evening. I feel over whelmed with the development between myself and Pazita. I feel closer to her now than I have ever done before in our 8 year long relationship. The major difference this time round is we do not have any secrets from each other, and neither should we as we are only friends no lovers, we are parents for our children, and that´s great!

This is recovery! I make mistakes along the way, I do hurt people, I do lie, I am dishonest and my motives are questionable. Having said all of that I trying my hardest to turn things around and I am on a journey of discovery that I have never been on before. I am about to change again and to change for the better, I can feel it in my soul, feeking hell I can feel a soul in my body now a days, it´s a miracle.

I finished watching The Motor Cycle Diaries and its an amazing film with wicked photography speaking volumes for normal people who live normal lives, just like me. Life does not have to be enriched by power and fame to loving in fact it is often quite the opposite. I am finding as I delve deeper into my character defects I am learning to accept myself more, and to learn humility when before there was a sense of grandiosity and arrogance.

I am blessed with the opportunity to travel with my guitar and to play in places that I have only dreamt of before. The journey can be lonely and there are days when I question my direction however I love my life and I adore going to new places and meeting new people, learning new languages and eating in fresh cultures. This is a gift that might only come knocking once and I am determined to earn enough knowledge that will ease me through to the other side.

I, like Willem Defoe, believe in spirituality. I believe that You are God and God is You. In all of us there is good and evil and we have the right to chose between heaven and hell in our own reality. They do say that the present moment is the only moment that has any significance to our lives, and I pray that my music is much more present now a days and that I am able to spread a positive message to all of those who have picked up on the vibe.

I am getting some movement in the US. I work through an on-line music broker called Sonic Bids, and I use the gateway to promote my music internationally. I have been listed for air time on …........ given a write up in....... and I am on the short list for the Love Box Festival in London for 09 and for a movie in LA. Things are going forward and that I am very pleased about the development of my writing, live skills and the next area to hone on is music production as I want to start making my own records.

In France I intend to sell a small EP Snowflakes for Millionaires which will 6 of my favourite tracks from The Sunset Session recorded in Cape Town.

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