David Patrick Carter: Cleaning tolilets, Responding to Criticism

David Patrick Carter: Cleaning toliletsThis morning when I picked up my emails in France there were a series of comments that had been left on my blog from the early hours of the morning. The comments will read were very derogative towards my character. My initial reaction was one of pain, my ego was crying out and then as the initial reaction started to fade I could see a positive way to grow today. Here I have an opportunity to examine my motives behind my life and I make some adjustments.

12 December 2008 01:36
Anonymous said... reasons for humility …
2.you have ABSOLUTELY NO RIGHT to punish those people, in public,and for all to see, by publishing your PERSONAL deepest, darkest thoughts. this is SELFISH.
3. i include your children in this as you are talking about prostitutes, drug-taking, personal abuse, failure, humiliation. Your kids are going to read about this! pull yourself together, man. D.I.G.N.I.T.Y. your kids will read this colossal crap and you have NO excuse.
4.YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN GOD. humility was one of his most important teachings and (please read your own blog for confirmation)you have no humility.anyone and i mean anyone can read the egotistical crap you have written and understand that you are extremely selfish and criminal in your misunderstanding of what it means to be "well". you are mean spirited. the way that you talk about other people (nina-k who ever the fuck that is) is awwwwwwwful!

Those who forget the past are deemed to repeat it. I am neither ashamed of who I am nor of who I used to be. I strive to become a better person and a loving father. I stand by my decision to be open about my past, and I will not hide behind masks especially for my children. I want them to know who I am not who I want them to believe I am.
I was not rude about Nina K, she is my friend and I admire her. I was making a comment on my relationship with people and with the city of London. London brings out my ego and my ego although necessary will only cause me pain in the long run.

Anonymous said...
5. your music is amateurish at best. BE REAL, DAVE. YOU KNOW WHAT IS GOOD AND BAD? Do you sound like Damien Rice? LISTEN TO YOUR LYRICS? Do you really have a future as a musician??The answer is no. An overwhelming no. You are in France now as a schalet ( spelt wrong) boy. Gettttttttttttttt outtttttttttttttttttt!!!!
6. i want to help you but your arrogance appals me!
Why so angry? I would be really interested in the tracks of mine you have listened to. I love Damian Rice, and I do not claim to be Damian Rice, I am David Patrick Carter, and thats enough right now. I am also not a Chalet Boy, I am a maintenance man and I provide the entertainment on a Tuesday evening in Le Terminus. More importantly this time last year I was shattered in a Rehab in Cape Town and now I building working relationships, working for a company in the mountains, booking gigs and about to record a brand new album. And for me that´s cool. I´m happy.
12 December 2008 01:47
Anonymous said...
if you would like to really get better, i would help you.
my home is yours.
i have a spare bedroom.
i am, unfortunately,
still your friend.
i have THICK skin. punchable, and i am possibly unbeatble in a fight.
and i have taken more drugs than you.
and i am stronger than you, and totally unafraid of you or any man. i have to deal with terror every day the likes of which you have NO comprehension.
i would do it for 1 reason and 1 reason only.
for your kids.

There is hope in this part of the comment. You state you are still my friend! So we were friends before? That´s great, maybe we can be friends again? So who is this, writing the comments? Does it matter? I don´t reflect the anger any more and that´s great. Everything you say about me, you actually feel about yourself. Thank you for the offer of help, that´s very kind and you just never know when I might be calling for assistance.

So where does this leave me and my blog?
I am still in the same place. I am going to continue to share my thoughts and my experiences on line and I believe that by doing so I am making a difference, maybe not to anyone else, maybe only a difference to my own life. When I write about my life I am taking responsibility for my actions in the past, therefore deleting the power out of my compulsive behaviour. I am walking a path that will help me deal with living and dying in a more positive and serene manner. I am determined not to take ALL of my character defects with me to my next level of conciousness. I live in a broken world, I am broken, I am human, I accept who I am.

Lots of things are changing in my life and next blog I would like to talk about opportunities that are arising for me in the US. I have a song up for a movie, and to celebrate we are giving that particular song away as a free download on line, all we ask for in return is your email address.